Thoughts on TFs, RP, and the Champion community

I won't be planning/organizing anymore TFs for a little while for personal reasons. No one is responsible for those reasons but me. I just over-extended myself.

I don't hate anyone - not even the two people I don't like in the rp community.

I'm not mad at anyone.

I don't prefer someone else's company over yours with the obvious exception of my husband who should get that preference.

I have characters in all three coalitions. I enjoy running with characters from all three coalitions no matter which character I'm on. I try to include who ever I can without regard to which SG name floats over their head. If your position is different than mine on this issue (and there are several of you out there - this is not directed at anyone in particular), that is your hang up, not mine.

Do not assume you know how I feel without asking. I'm pretty damn honest about how I feel when I'm asked about it, and I don't appreciate you assuming what I think or how I feel or reading between my lines. Ask me, damnit. Don't assume my motives either. Ask me.

I try to make everyone around me comfortable and happy, and sometimes I do this at my own expense. This is my issue. I'm working on it. I fail regularly. I'm not perfect. I'm a work in progress just like you are.

If you want to team/rp/play with me, tell me. I don't read minds, and I don't know when you're available to do so. I get tagged pretty regularly for play, so I rarely find myself in a circumstance where I'm asking for someone to help. This means that if you're waiting for me to ask you, it may be a while. Don't decide I don't want to because I haven't asked. Sheesh, people.

Each person views circustances and situations from their own point of view and is affected by the way those things make them feel personally. That's how it is. Even when we think we're taking other people's feelings into account, we're still coloring that with how we feel. Take a step back and realize that the other person is seeing that circumstance/situation from their own point of view, and that point of view is colored by their own feelings and perception. Realize that sometimes, it's not all about you. Give the benefit of the doubt. Have a little fucking compassion.

And leave me out of the he said/she said bullshit.

If I'm so unapproachable that you can't come to me about a percieved slight or feeling, then go to Mike or Steve. Ask people who know me. I don't bite the heads off live bats or scream bloody murder. Seek mediation from an SG leader so that we can sit down and hash things out if you need to.

Lastly, this week has been a thorough drain on me emotionally. I'm likely to be hard to find for a couple of days and blunt if you do find me. This isn't about you. It's about me. I need a break. I'm sorry I can't always be there for you all. Find a good friend or family member to talk to. Understand that I can't be there for you later if I don't take this time now.

Thank you for reading.

Rant done.